Not long ago the boys and I went with a friend to the beach, or what we like to call a man-made version of the beach. It was nice, but boy did I get a bad sunburn on my legs, stomach and chest. And you know what's strange. For a very long time I was very self-conscious about wearing any sort of a bikini because of pregnancy marks and so forth. Now it's like I don't mind. I guess something in me has changed to believe that it's not the end of the world if I'm caught wearing a bikini. I'm finally starting to open my eyes and smiling.